I want to be ur fantasy

happi

2006-02-21T07:07:00.000-08:00

I'm now worry of my 'N' level.. haiz.. but.. i cant stress myself too much.. or else.. i'll slp... so.. i muz jia you tis yrs.. so that get promoted 2 sec 5.. heeheex.. today.. i'm so happi.. coz my ss retest i noe how 2 do.. and i got confindence can pass... heehee..btw.. i nv pass my ss common test b4.. hahax so ps..lolx after my sch i went back home.. i saw my jw kor kor de msg.. so happi nia... we vv long.. nv msg le.. hahax.. den.. we play Mu together.. and my zr kor.. o so play hahax.. after zr kor logout.. jw kor told me how he noe zr kor de.. hahax.. quite funny.. and i realised tat.. jw kor, zr kor and me.. noe each other abt 1yr+ le.. quite long nia.. i get 2 noe them in MU global.. den.. we chat chat.. den bcum kor and mei le.. wahahax..today we 3 train together.. i feeling lik back 2 the pass time.. heehee.. my 2 kor always got alot of charp 2 say.. always make me laugh lik hell..

stress

2006-01-13T05:22:00.000-08:00

tis few day.. haiz.. stress.. got alot of hw.. and my CCA.. i still hav 2 act.. i dun really lik the char teacher given 2 me.. but shuai liao.. frm mon-fri.. i almost every day stay back sch..to finish up all my work.. at night no enuff slp nia... F&N coursework gonna come out liao.. sianz.. need 2 busy again.. haiz... tml still hav 2 go back 4 MELC.. STRESS.. haiz.. i dun wanna 2 b lik yuki.. haiz.. she cut her hand till lik hell.. i saw the scar it really gif me a heartache.. she juz sad, unhappi.. she solve her problem by using de most silly way.. i noe yuki since pri 4 bahx.. shes a vv sweet gal.. happi go lucky person.. lik 2 draw.. draw alot of sweet and cute stuff.. but now.. shes sad.. low confindence.. lik 2 draw monster.. human bleeding.. her drawing cover wif blood and evil.. tats sux.. i hate tat.. she dun cry.. she cut herself.. the problem really solve le mah.. now.. tok abt myself bahx.. i'm really run out of time.. and i'm not tat boliao.. 2 do anything excluding my study and maple.. any problem dun look 4 me.. juz fxxx off..

wat 2 do..

2006-01-10T04:32:00.000-08:00

yesterday three ting went my huz.. hahax.. 1st time 4 of us in my huz.. happi nia.. sunday 4 of us.. at wei ting huz enjoy yan ting make de mango pudding.. heehee.. today.. quite bored.. whole day play maple.. hahax.. after my maple.. log out den saw some thing.. the 1st thing go into my mind is... haiz.. i dun noe wat 2 do.. dun noe who 2 share wif.. i juz wanna find out wat it means.. i juz wanna confirm tat i'm wrong.. but wait till quite long still no ans.. wth.. haiz.. i dun wanna share.. as.. the ans had not confirm.. if i share.. dun noe lah.. i juz dun wanna replay de story.. and make it a chaos.. dots.. but any way it is not my problem.. mayb i should juz let nature take place.. so tat 我的心才会像湖面上的水那般平静。

after sch reopen

2006-01-09T03:49:00.000-08:00

After sch reopen.. i was quite busy wif sch work, cca and coucillor work.. abit tired.. the frenzship between three ting and i gets better.. ur noe yan ting play maple story omg.. shes so cute.. she dun noe how 2 control.. hahax.. u look at her killing monster dam funny.. but den she learn quite fast nia.. wei ting.. slower than yan ting.. omg.. our id all got xiaoxxx de.. hahax.. we gonna take class photo in maple.. i think.. is the 1st class do tat bahx.. lolx.. so bo liao.. i lik my new class rm.. as.. it located at the 5th floor highest.. wahahahax.. den we gonna put curtian on our class window as morning sun light too strong.. den out side our class rm got a vv big space.. so if put some potted plant would be nice.. lolx.. wahahhax..

sch gonna reopen..

2005-12-31T05:08:00.000-08:00

during tis holidays.. i go work.. made alot of new frenz.. get 2 noe diff kind of ppl.. hm.. tears and joys during the works.. the job was tired.. but the pay quite high.. i quit job 1 week b4 sch reopen... miss my colleague there.. miss him especially.. but he dun seen 2 miss me.. ya wateva.. so i dun think 2 much ya.. let the past b past bahx.. fate would take place de.. hm.. tok abt yesterday bahx.. ting and i go library do hw.. on the way back home.. i saw a guy look lik wei kiat but den not sure leh.. today i asked him.. in msn.. den.. he ask me who am i.. dots.. heart broken liao.. i reply him.. since he dun rmb den nvm bahx... i'm juz a passing cloud in his path of life.. i alwayz think too highly of myself.. title of god mummy is juz hollow.. and nth...

go out wif kor kor

2005-12-02T00:53:00.000-08:00

25th nov.. after my work.. ting and i gonna meet our wei foong kor kor... hahax.. vv long time nv saw him.. liao.. miss ya.. yesterday is his bday mah.. so.. today.. go out wif him loh.. ting and i bought him a billabong t-shirt.. hahax white colour polo shirt.. quite nice manz.. after we go watch harry potter.. den outside the cinema.. koh wee, howe and his sis suddenly pop out.. wat biang.. xia wo yi tiao.. den i slap howe again.. hahax.. btw his sis quite pretty de nia.. keke.. hm.. howe de blue hair.. quite nice nia.. koh wee dye gold colour.. lolx.. dots.. pink colour nicer.. hahax.. no lah.. look weird manz... den we go in watch loh.. after the movies.. ting go my huz.. after tat koh wee and howe.. wait my huz down there 4 her.. hahax.. she watch tv.. till 4get time.. dots.. me too tired liao.. go nv send her down.. after she went down.. i fall on my bed.. slp lik zhu zhu.. keke.. dots...

yan ting de bday gift

2005-12-02T00:38:00.000-08:00

23th nov.. i worked morning shift.. frm 6.30 to 3pm.. wth.. i wake up at 4.30am.. dam tired and sleepy.. after work.. i gonna meet koh wee.. hahax.. paiseh.. i late 4 quite long.. but den nvm mah.. guy muz wait 4 gal de... heeheex.. den i saw howe wif him.. i didnt noe.. he bring howe along.. any way.. i dun really noe him... till tat day bahx.. so we walk walk cc loh.. during tat few hrs shopping.. tat howe keep shuaning me.. wth.. den i juz vv bu ke qi de.. slap him loh.. pai.. 1 slap.. a while ltr.. pai 2 slap.. i juz keep slaping him.. till the shopping ended.. hahax.. say me more loh.. sort sort= short short... i slap u till u sort.. btw.. koh wee.. i working.. already vv tired liao.. i'm gd enough 2 pei u.. go buy gift hor.. btw the gift is 4 ting.. hahax... quite nice de bracelet... she lik it.. heehee

skip MELC

2005-11-19T11:30:00.000-08:00

today i skip MELC.. coz.. i cant go.. i cannot wake up.. every nitez abt 2-3am den slp... tis afternoon i still hav 2 work.. MELC end at 1pm... i muz reach causeway point by 1.50pm.. den i still need 2 eat lunch.. and buy dinner.. coz my working place canteen didnt open on sat.. dots.. last nitez. vv funny.. a guy.. told my supervisor Dave.. tat he dun wanna study liao.. den Dave say.. him muz at least get a certificate.. den he say nvm.. fail oso get certificate wad.. hahax.. den Dave say..y muz they gif him a certificate.. 2 prove tat he had fail his exam?.. keke.. den xiao tang and i laughing non stop nia... we are not chao xiao at him.. juz feel lik so cute.. hahax.. btw.. his facial feature was not bad leh.. not charming type lah.. but at least a word "handsome" 2 describe him.. hahax.. every time he walk pass me.. i'll always look at him de.. dots.. prove tat i'm normal le bahx.. show tat me not les hahax.. normally.. i look at gal only.. so.. my eugene didi.. alwayz say i les.. den got ppl tot.. i really les... my another les is ting.. wahahahax.. vv funny..

my working days

2005-11-18T12:41:00.000-08:00

vv long time nv update my blog liao.. heehee.. tis week i working mah.. vv tired nia.. standing for 8hrs per day.. dots.. frm 3pm to nitez 11pm.. heehee reach home abt 12+ liao.. so go orh orh loh.. every day the same.. abit sianz.. but better than stay at home play game.. didnt get pay o so.. hahax.. i money face sia... any way.. my elf still get lvl up.. wahahahax.. my bro help me train mah... the first day i go working.. so scare nia.. coz no teen gal lik me.. oonly a few boii.. dots.. but den.. ltr i saw a gal gal.. leh.. she walk 2wards me.. say hi 2 me.. heehee.. den we be frenz liao.. hahax.. after that we go eat lunch together, shopping together, work together.. after work.. we.. gong gong.. de.. dun noe.. got bus send us home.. den her dad come.. send me home oso.. dots.. btw.. her name xiao tang.. nice name wor... she in JC liao.. keke... hm.. after tis few days of work.. i realize alot of things.. my daddy.. really care and dote me alot.. he.. wait.. me back home.. den cook 4 me.. the next morning he still got work nia... so gan dong... and i noe.. how tired me dad and mum work.. juz 2 gif us a gd life.. i tears coming down liao... =(

i find job liao...

2005-11-12T01:23:00.000-08:00

today.. i go interview 4 job.. sharon pei me.. but she didnt get tat job as they need 16 above.. they call me go back home wait 4 call.. i scare i cant get tat job..coz my working EXP is 0.. and i'm a student.. dots.. but den.. they call me leh.. so happi.. my first job and first interview.. heehee... btw.. it all thx 2 yi hui.. he help me look through the newspaper.. and gif me the num de.. thx alot.. yi hui... i find jay de new song o so.. i got frm eugene didi.. morning i ask him.. he nv reply.. but den late late at nitez den send me.. but i gonna go orh orh liao.. coz sat i need morning early wake up.. do something 4 my dad.. but then jay de new song hard 2 find nia.. to me lah.. so i wait loh.. but wait vv long leh.. i eyes almost closing.. hahax.. but nvm... keke.. i need de song mah.. keke...

holidays

2005-11-10T00:31:00.000-08:00

vv long time nv blog liao... i spent my holidays rotting.. dots.. i wanna find job.. but hard 2 find nia.. den play game o so vv bo liao.. i play maple.. some thing cant go in.. den go in liao.. some time frenz not in o so sianz.. my sleepy nv play maple le.. no one helping me.. protect me.. dots.. without sleepy maple are not 4 me.. den i go play MU.. dots.. it is a game which can PK other player... the player inside sort sort de.. i juz go near them.. they start shouting no KS.. dots.. i'm not trying 2 Ksing.. they start att u.. den kenna pk by me start kbkb... tg sch start liao.. no time pei me crazy.. if he had tat time o so not pei me often.. sianz... no sch, no job, no game, no time 2 siao siao.. haiz.. life so sianz.. i wish 2 go out.. fishing.. looks quite fun manz.. stay away frm city life.. quite peaceful.. hahax..

after exam

2005-10-25T22:34:00.000-07:00

vv long time nv blog liao.. tis time.. my result drop lik hell..next yr go S2 liao.. wat biang..dots... now tok abt.. other things bahx.. wahahaha.. yesterday.. i went Temasek poly for their engineering week opening ceremony.. quite fun bahx... nth much.. hm.. tis few day.. our sch keep giving us sexually lesson.. omg wat biang.. today i saw the process of abortion.. dam cruel.. so ke lian de foetus.. they use a tube suck up the fluid in the womb.. and tear the foeus body and gone.. left the head.. den they still smash the head.. wth loh.. so er xin.. a life gone.. so sad.. haiz.. hm.. i realize one thing.. guys are usually more mature than galz.. as they dun get angry wif small matters.. not lik galz.. quite xiao qi lah.. i am.. dun noe other galz same as me anot... easy 2 chi chu.. when still a child.. daddy or mummy care more on sibling.. start 2 cry.. get angry, chi daddy mummy de chu.. den when reach schooling age.. teacher show favoritism to other student.. o so getting sad.. when age gets older.. between frenz.. tis frenz go out wif other frenz more often.. o so angry.. older abit.. bf pei his buddy nv pei gf.. o so chi chu... i think galz are so weird.. dots... for guys.. when they reach certain age.. they wont angry or chi chu.. on such small matters.. hahax..

stupid

2005-10-17T21:44:00.000-07:00

vv long time nv blog liao.. i'm sick and tired of tis 17 yrs i had gone through.. tis life are not 4 me.. frm the day i born the brain are not wif me.. i'm stupid, fool, idiot and noob.. i'm so foolish 2 believe in wat others had told me.. in the end i found there are full wif lies.. and i still act lik nth happen.. lik no big duel.. wth am i doing... when i'm still a child my best frenz cheaped me.. cheaped my money.. i'm still a child got nth much.. she betray our friendship.. juz because of a few dollar.. i tot i had become clever.. but everything seem untrue.. i had become even stupid than b4... didnt lost anything.. but hurts my heart.. bleeding non-stop.. my skin had scraped off.. my heart had choped into small pieces.. nobody care 4 me.. even if i cry out loud.. begging 4 help.. who cares.. i'm juz lik a dead rotten rat.. even cats wont want 2 eat...

nose

2005-10-09T22:27:00.000-07:00

today yan ting and i go library study.. but.. vv crowded.. ken, marcus and eric gonna come too.. after we mos burger meet them.. chew and another person dun noe wat the name o so here... i ask them a few math qusetion.. but they all dun noe.. and i'm rushing out of time.. so ting and i go buy sharon's bday gift den go back 2 my house.. lucky wang wang and adrian online so i ask them.. and tat few question solve.. hahax.. adrian look lik got problem.. but he dun wish 2 share.. haiz... and we dun feel got any mood 2 study so we two lie on my bed and chat... hahax.. my nose getting worst nia.. last nitez kena flu.. after tat.. we eat chicken wing hahax.. den ting stay at my house till 9.30.. she eat dinner at my house hahax.. at first i gonna call her 2 slp at my house but tml got sch so she go back home.. hahax.. i so ke lian.. now got abit fever.. den i go down 2 buy medicine.. shop all close le.. omg.. i muz eat tat particular medicine.. other medicine got no effect de.. dun noe tonight how.. btw.. i suddeny feel lik went up the hill beside my block.. the weather was so windy... haiz.. today on the bed i chat wif ting dun noe how it link till wang wang there... haiz...

sianz...

2005-10-06T22:13:00.000-07:00

today evening abt 7pm.. yan ting and i go library study SS.. we saw a group of guy.. and a group of girl.. wat biang so shui.. tat group of girl on their music vv loud.. den tat group of guy bu shuan... hahax.. they on some vv funny music... den both of us keep laughing so funny.. lik watching an movies.. tat group of guy vv handsome nia.. they melt my heart nia..but they look abit beng.. their language all those cb.. lj wateva de... omg.. we study at abt 8.30 something.. den go popular help weiting and sophia look 4 a book.. after tat pei yanting deng bus... i reach home abt 9.30.. me dam hungry nia.. i eat alot.. hahax.. my bro call me 2 help look after his game char.. den i let tat char go hell... kena my bro scold till pitouka.. wth loh.. my bro unreasonable nia... i gonna study.. for my SS he dun let.. and scold me.. i super du lan now.. juz now at library didnt get 2 study much.. i can not fail my SS de.. my geo already vv lan liao.. if fail SS den geo o so fail.. wat biang.. haiz.. hope tml morning i can wake up early 2 study.. if not.. haiz...

chinese paper2

2005-10-05T23:14:00.000-07:00

today take chinese paper2 dam hard.. wat biang scare cant pass wif flying colour.. nth much.. my HP abit sort sort.. so i cant msg him... haiz.. btw even if my HP nv sort i msg him.. he dun seem 2 had tat time 2 reply me.. o so no point.. miss my june holiday... although tat holiday was not well spent.. i had a great time wif my online frenz and him.. in global MU and MUSG..

friendship

2005-10-04T22:39:00.000-07:00

today yanting and sophia patch back le.. hahax so happi.. sophia scold yanting during recess den yanting cry.. omg.. she run 2 the toilet dun wanna come out.. hahax.. den adrian go in and call yan ting out.. so funny today adrian's clothes really lik a teacher nia hahax... look vv mature.. he so shui nia.. sec day b teacher kena such student cry inside toilet dun wanna come out..den he was so gan ka tat go inside the girls toilet but b4 tat we had told all the girl in the toilet.. tat teacher gonna come in and look 4 yanting... but still not vv comfortable 4 a guy 2 stay in the girls toilet too long... so we soon bring yan ting out.. den sophia make yanting laugh again.. she so pro nia.. she go touch yan ting's mole den she laugh liao.. hahax..lolx.. but if a person dun noe yanting well go touch.. hahax.. she sure kick and let tat person fly 2 north pole.. lolx.. btw i o so got cry inside the toilet b4 den dun wanna come out.. hahax so paiseh.. but girls are always lik tat de mah.. keke.. after sch wat biang... hwew lin's joke dam funny.. i laugh non stop omg...

funny day

2005-10-03T22:41:00.000-07:00

today.. sophia angry wif yan ting coz of yesterday we go study.. den saw wei ting.. yan ting run away.. sophia feel tat yan ting bu gou peng you.. nv think of how wei ting's feel at tat moment she run away.. yan ting run away not only coz of wei ting o so other reason... now yan ting was so angry.. but i noe deep inside she's bleeding.. coz sophia is her best buddy.. haiz.. i o so dunnoe how 2 patch they 2 back as i think both of them should hav a nice chat.. yan ting should told sophia in details.. but yan ting dun feel lik telling.. coz she say since they are best buddy.. sophia should her well.. and she should understand her.. as sophia should not only listen 2 one side story.. haiz.. wateva the case i got nth 2 say.. as both of them was hack care..some time i think time is the best healing pills.. let time take place bahx.. now tok abt me.. myself bahx.. nth much tis morning vv paiseh.. i saw a guy sitting outside my class room..i tot he was ex student of MSL.. den i crazy wif youshan and mei liang.. tok alot of rubbish.. hahax.. den the guy told me he was not ex student of MSL.. but a teacher.. wat biang so paiseh nia.. but he look so young some more dun wear lik a teacher.. but style nia.. he was such a friendly teacher.. got a bit of JJ de feeling.. hahax.. btw his shirt cant wear for teaching.. so i think tml.. he might wear a shirt tat use 4 teaching bahx... btw i dun really understand y only PE teacher can wear t-shirt.. haiz.. wateva lah... hope sophia and yan ting would back 2 normal as a best frenz...

my bday

2005-10-01T20:41:00.000-07:00

tml is my birthday.. today i'm so touch nia.. my ting x3 yesterday.. go buy my bday gif and cake 4 me nia.. but they didnt manage 2 get the japan cake.. so they use piazz 2 replace.. hahax.. today sophia wake up vv early juz 2 bake the wage 4 me nia..omg i'm so touch.. den during POA lesson.. they suddenly take out the piazz and sing bday song.. omg so paiseh nia.. sophia sing so loud nia.. she nv sing 2 me b4.. first time leh.. so sweet.. they gif me a billabong pencil box and and keychain wif the words" yoz sexy" on it.. me touch.. gonna cry liao.. luv ur 3 muacks.. frenz 4eva.. ~huggies~

first day of exam

2005-09-30T23:35:00.000-07:00

today is the first day of my sec 3 end yrs exam.. eng paper1 and MT paper1.. both paper are quite ok.. not vv hard.. today i was quite moody.. but i didnt scream or wat.. yesterday.. youshan make me cry.. den i hide inside the toilet.. 4 quite long.. 5day liao.. hm.. the 5 day is 4 wat.. ans.. haven come out.. when it come out.. i'll tell de.. i felt worried, coz of many things.. i trying my best 2 not think abt it.. but i juz cant.. i worried of my jw kor kor's O level exam, my eugene didi de N level exam, my end of the yrs exam.. and dot dot dots.. i felt tired sometime.. felt lik hack care everythings.. i'm so stress.. i got no mood 2 shopping.. i felt lik go fishing wif tg.. i feel lik went up the hill at midnight.. and waiting 4 sunrise.. i feel lik go up the roof top.. searching 4 stars.. i wish i got a pair wings.. to flying away frm the city.. move my house 2 forest.. play wif the monkey.. and eat banana wif them.. hahax..lolx.. i..............feel lik end my life... NOW..

heehee

2005-09-27T20:28:00.000-07:00

today.. sharon, yan ting and i playing and study in the councillor room.. till abt 4pm something.. the canteen shop all close liao.. wat biang.. we vv hungry go nth 2 eat.. o so lazy 2 go out of the sch 2 buy food.. den sharon remember tat.. we got can food inside the councillor room.. so we open 2 can of tuna.. and eat.. wat biang dam nice.. hahax.. so funny.. first time.. eating can tuna without bread or rice.. btw.. there are salad cream too.. heeheex.. at first we gonna make tuna salad.. but no vegetable.. so weird nia.. councillor room stock food.. the food no belong 2 councillor room de.. it belongs 2 Mr tay.. his our sch DM.. vv nice guy.. lik 2 eat.. same as me.. wahahax.. last time we got camp.. den we go shop 4 the food.. after the camp still got alot.. so we bring all the stockable food 2 councillor room.. hahax.. i think should stock more.. while we resting in the councillor room.. still got food or drink 4 us.. hahax

ke lian...

2005-09-26T23:03:00.000-07:00

today.. nth much.. stress too.. tml got geo test and chinses spelling and gong han.. haiz.. today's math re-test.. question 1 i dun noe how 2 do.. but i think can pass bahx.. i get my phy and POA common test back.. wat biang dun do well haiz.. every day test test test... i really feel lik crying.. and my mum.. keep nagging.. i need 2 breath OK!!! tis time i nv think of cutting my hand.. i'm juz abit tired of life.. sometime.. i feel lik i'm lik a bird.. i injured my wing.. i lost in the jungle.. dun noe where 2 go.. there is no light no colours.. darkness.. tonight.. nobody li wo.. i'm so lonely.. luckly tg online.. or else i got no one 2 chat wif.. btw.. his a guy.. tat i noe via gobal MU..

nth

2005-09-25T23:49:00.000-07:00

today.. nth much.. my eyes pain.. frm tis morning till now.. dun noe y.. afternoon yan ting and i go woodland point.. mac 2 c hows shi wei's working.. wat biang.. she vv ke lian nia.. after tat.. ting and i go shop shop.. tis few week vv stress leh.. alot of hw 2 do nia.. i gonna brain damage liao... i got no mood 2 do anything.. so sad.. feel lik killing myself.. i hate week end.. weekdays.. hw lesser.. week end lik hell.. 2 day.. for 8 worksheets 2 b done.. wat biang lohx.. some of the worksheets.. muz write 4 to 5 page loh.. siao.. STRESS... i gonna die soon.. wateva lah.. i'm not going 2 do all tis loh.. gif me time 2 study myself.. make me feel better.. teacher gif us alot of worksheet.. so wat.. there is a word call "copy"... so wats the different.. if a student really luv study.. they will automatic go de loh.. i dun lik keep doing worksheet.. i find it no point... i'm doing coz i wanna fishin up.. but not learning.. if a teacher call me 2 write my own notes.. i do learn.. dun noe y.. mayb is my own way of studying bahx.. different ppl got different way of studying.. mayb.. doing worksheet do apply on others bahx.. but too bad not me..

i cry.. haiz..

2005-09-19T23:44:00.000-07:00

today recess duty.. i vv moody.. coz.. a few guys is try 2 b funny wif councillor.. tat makes me.. angry and feel irritating.. den after duty we go canteen and rest.. i throw my book on the table.. "BONG" so loud.. den i walk away... after.. i buy my food.. i cant swallow.. the fire.. had reach 2 the top of my head... i scream.. every one was so quiet.. but hwew lin told the sell food auntie.." jian gui 10" and her companies was laughing along.. tat act makes me feel lik they are testing my limitation.. alothough she didnt say my name out.. 2 proof tat i'm the jian gui 10, the mean is already there... after tat.. i went up 2 class.. and looking 4 pen knife frm yan ting.. but jia hui.. pass me his pen.. wad biang cheap scape.. i touch it.. den broken liao.. after tat.. i back 2 my sit.. den laugh after tat.. tears coming out liao.. i was so tired.. LIFE SUX... i can not ren liao.. i noe tat hwew lin's mouth are always lik tat de.. so after tat cry.. i got no hate on her anymore.. but.. i juz got a feeling tat.. some information tat reach hwew lin was not true.. but wat so eva.. i dun wanna 2 think abt tat or continue 2 find out whether the infor is right anot.. coz.. i dun wish 2 find out tat.. i'm a FOOL...

haiz...haiz..

2005-09-17T23:52:00.000-07:00

last nitez.. i told him tat.. the guy i had crush on is him.. den he thought tat i'm joking.. things keep inside make me feel vv uncomfortable.. so i told him.. coz i wanna let him noe abt it.. at least i had told him.. and hav tat courage 2 face him.. even he might avoid me.. i dun need any reply on the crush thing.. coz.. i'm juz saying out 2 make me feel comfortable.. wateva the ans is.. i hav 2 face it.. i dun wanna 2 keep it.. till the day i'm lying in the coffin.. tat was too late rite... mayb i might die early.. who noes.. it is vv xin ku 2 luv a person when the person dun even noe abt tat... every thing tat person do 2 u.. or say 2 u.. might affect ur whole day's mood.. one more reason of y.. i told him abt tat.. hm.. muz back 2 my long long time ago.. i had waited 4 a person for 4 yrs.. not too long not too short.. i keep for 4 yrs.. den i realize i no longer luv him anymore.. so it letgo by itself.. till today tat person still dun noe.. i had waited 4 yrs bcoz of him.. heehee.. i think i'll put everything a side.. coz 3 more week 2 exam.. so muz work hard...

sad

2005-09-16T21:35:00.000-07:00

last nite i saw a pic.. den lik a lighting strike over my head.. feel lik i lost everything.. or mayb is my eyes playing trick wif me.. i got no confidence.. i lost the feeling of dance.. i feel lik giving up.. U MAKE ME LOOK STUPID!!!....today recess duty wif you shan... we joke tat if i reach the age of 30.. and still haven get married.. he marry me.. hahax.. den after tat.. i eat alot.. den he say i already short shrot de.. if grow fat will look lik a ball.. den he dun want me liao.. hahax.. so lame.. after sch yan ting and i go cut our hair... den we saw a group of galz.. they say.. eeeee.. hahax.. bcoz of my black colour bra girdle.. lolx.. tats common ok gals.. now days every where selling tat.. alot of colour and design.. wat 4? 4 we gals 2 show out.. wear it out.. some time u can juz wear bra inside and outside wif a jacket..of coz zip it up lahx... it is vv common too.. btw.. tis message are 4 gals.. i was a bit moody today... a bit sad.. y? hm.. coz.. i feel tat the distance between me and a frenz gets further.. avoiding me.. too busy.. haiz.. dun noe lahx... last time.. i had tis feeling.. wif another person.. and tat person leave me.. i force myself 2 slp.. so tat i wont recall the times we had.. i go on my life as normal.. when nitez falls.. there is alwayz water on my pillow.. haiz.. dun tok abt sad thing liao.. today i saw shane at causeway point.. hahax.. vv long time nv saw him liao.. nv change alot.. still the same.. hahax.. luckly he nv saw me.. or else he sure laugh lik hell... omg..

hm...

2005-09-14T22:00:00.000-07:00

tis morning i get 2 noe youshan's bday.. was yesterday too.. same as my jun wei korkor.. omg.. i didnt noe tat.. i feel so guilty.. his my best "gay" frenz leh.. den i dun noe his bday.. hm.. nth much today.. when i gonna reach my home.. i saw tat black cat again.. omg.. it keep stare at me.. and keep following me.. wth.. force me 2 scream again.. i dun really lik cat.. and i'm scare of it.. since i was still a baby.. dun noe how come.. i saw cat sure start crying.. i remember tat my grandma.. got a cat and a dog.. i luv my doggy alot.. but cat alwayz lik 2 go near me... and was so scary.. if a cat dun go near me. i wont.. scream or cry.. but if it go near me.. a few times.. i sure scream lik hell.. some time cry too.. wth lohx.. my bro, god didi and my frenz sharon.. every morning meet downs there.. but the cat dun go near them.. keep going near me.. i dun lik it.. how 2 get rid of it.. omg.. so fan..

bad day

2005-09-13T23:32:00.000-07:00

haiz.. today was not a gd day 2 me.. i'm so moody in the morning.. on the way 2 sch.. a black cat keep disturb me.. it force me 2 scream.. tat time was abt 6.40am bahx.. when i reach sch.. still no mood.. i got no mood 2 study my chem... luckly it was a vv small test.. today a lot of teacher absent.. so we got no lesson hahax.. it was a chaos.. my frenz and i was trying 2 persuade florence 2 letgo of eric.. bcoz of eric her result drop lik hell.. she was so desparate on him.. but eric dont seen 2 look at her once.. poor gal.. and she still dun gif out.. vain hope tat one day eric will receive her luv.. omg silly gal.. luv is beautiful when a person who worth 4 u 2 luv.. since eric noe florence was in luv wif him.. he start 2 avoid her.. i think her heart was bleeding now... during geo lesson dun noe y.. i mad liao.. i take jia hui's pen and bend it till curve.. den take yanting's penknife to cut myself.. hahax.. stupid.. i call siew dun do tat.. but wat am i doing today.. i scold florence silly.. but wat am i going through the pass few yrs.. i was silly too.. i do cry under my blanket.. do did silly thing bcoz of luv.. but now i'm not going 2 do anymore.. if i luv a guy but he dun luvs me.. i'll juz letgo.. if a guy tat play wif my feeling.. and let me noe abt tat.. i'll kick he 2 the north pole.. oh.. ya today is my jun wei kor kor's bday... wish him pass his O level wif flying colours and happi bday..

the notebook

2005-09-12T21:50:00.000-07:00

today Ms woo recommend us 2 read a book named " The Notebook" it is a vv romantic luv story.. so yanting and I go rent tat VCD and watch.. hahax.. but it is NC16 movies.. hahax.. anyway there is no diff.. i still can borrow.. coz tis yr i 17 liao lohx.. kekex.. the story is abt teenagers, Aillie and Noah begin a whirlwind courtship tat soon blossoms into tender intimacy... the young couple is quickly separated by Allie's upper-class parents who insist tha Noah isnt rite 4 her.. several yrs pass, and when they meet again, their passion is rekindled forcing Allie to choose between her soulmate and class order.. tis beautiful tale has a particulary special meaning to an older gentleman who regularly reads the timeless love story to his aging companion.. when i watch the movies wth.. it makes ppl feel high omg.. a bit of sexual.. but not alot.. it is a really romantic shows.. omg.. i wish my future hubby was lik Noah.. heehee

sophia and wei ting's bday

2005-09-10T23:36:00.000-07:00

tis morning we go POA lesson.. alot of ppl nv turn up.. during the lesson yan ting so pervert nia.. she keep looking at sabrin's breast.. omg den she keep laughing... hahax.. anyway.. i o so vv bian tai de.. afternoon we gonna go marina south 2 eat steam boat... we waiting 4 evan abt 45 min.. wth.. she vv slow leh.. den we get onto MRT.. in the train evan scream leh.. den everyone look at us.. so paiseh nia.. when we reach.. wth the condition was bad.. but the food quite nice nia.. vv hot there.. dun hav air-con de.. den abit dirty omg.. suddenly a mute asking us 2 help buy her bear.. i dun understand wat she trying 2 told us.. but in the end.. my frenz and i buy a zhu zhu frm her..we decide 2 put in our classroom hahax.. abit expensive nia.. $13 juz 4 a small zhu zhu.. normal shopping mall sell abt $5-6.. but at least better than we donate $5 for a coupon.. while we gonna 2 steam the prawn.. omg.. it keep jumping.. we cant catch it.. den so paiseh nia.. alot of ppl watching us catch prawn.. i was really mad liao.. i catch it.. and throw onto the steamer.. a few sec.. cooked.. so easy.. kekex... quite fun 2 catch the prawn hahax.. after eating.. is abt 9pm le.. den we take train 2 orchard shop shop.. there got lion dance some more hahax.. so fun.. i dam tired lohx.. regret wearing high heel shoes.. my leg so pain sia.. alamak.. walk too long liao.. haiz..

fever

2005-09-09T11:30:00.000-07:00

today not feeling well.. i dun dare 2 msg him.. dun noe y.. stupid nia.. cant stop thinking of him.. so i force myself 2 slp.. frm 7.30pm till 11pm.. wake up liao realize i got fever.. haiz suan liao nvm wont die de.. ltr i go slp again.. coz tml got POA lesson.. den after tat go sophia and wei ting's bday party... dun noe tonight can slp anot.. if really cant.. mayb i go play maple story.. my junwei kor kor o so got play.. hahax.. his still a noob.. last time play game alwayz he take care of me.. now i muz take care of him.. hahax.. in the game he vv cute nia.. but i a bit worry.. coz.. i scare he would follow my zhen rong kor kor's foot step.. tis yr vv importance 2 him.. i dun wish 2 c him fail his Os.. haiz.. and my didi eugene.. after tio sharon's reject..every day sad sad de.. now i think he find his new luv le bahx.. but muz concentrate on Ns first... BGR put a side first.. for me mahx.. happy go lucky lohx.. dun think too much lohx.. back 2 my own self bahx.. BGR o so put a side.. after my final yr exam.. i gonna ask siew out 2 dance wowooo.. i plan 2 hav new jazz and hip hop combine.. hahax.. c how it end up.. should b nice bahx.. heehee.. oh ya.. for gals dancing is the most easy way of jian fei.. hahax..

half dead on my bed

2005-09-08T21:26:00.000-07:00

today i was dam tired.. i slp till quite late den wake up.. omg.. dun noe how come my ear vv pain.. first few day ago my stomach muscle cramp.. till now still lik tat wth.. bcoz of last nitez's nightmare my leg a bit numb... den the most painfully is my elbow.. when i was still a baby.. i fall down frm hight place broken my elbow... den after operation.. it was fine but some time.. suddenly feel pain.. haiz.. mayb sequelea bahx.. i was lik half dead on my bed.. haiz..

I'm fall in in luv again

2005-09-07T23:54:00.000-07:00

I'm falling in luv again.. his a stupid guy.. so do i silly gal.. or mayb he wasn't stupid.. it is juz the way of avoiding the fact? haiz.. some time it is hard 2 b some1's guardian angel... his my magic paintbrush... get 2 noe he somewhere around june bahx... tat time my world was all black and white..coz of some reason.. he coloured my world by been my frenz... and now i think i'm falling in luv on him le bahx... no reason.. i got quite alot of guy frenz but y him.. i dun noe.. i'm afraid 2 let him noe.. coz i cant afford 2 lose him... i'm afraid 2 fall in luv... afraid of getting hurts.. afraid of the word "forever".. coz its only apply on frenz and nth else...

haiz...

2005-09-06T20:40:00.000-07:00

OMG.. last nitez nv slp well.. tis morning end up wif panda eyes.. haiz.. today go Ikea wif some of my fallow councillor and Mr Tay look 4 furniture 4 his office.. when we on the way back 2 woodlands... we get into a vv strong smell bus.. siao.. i really cant take it.. almost vomit.. den we stop at marsiling MRT station.. den take MRT 2 woodlands.. so tired nia.. hahax.. after tat Mr Tay bring us go crystal Jade 2 eat lunch.. hahax.. quite nice the food.. but a bit expensive.. vv paiseh leh.. today Mr Tay keep treat us.. The Bed Rm design in Ikea.. dam nice manz.. the bed was so comfortable.. omg.. i saw a pink colour wall so cute and sweet.. i'm fall in luv liao... we go there lik tou lan.. look 4 our own things hahax.. but we did find furniture tat he needed.. but cant get too expensive.. coz we got limit amount of money.. and is for sch office so can not too expensive..

orchard

2005-09-05T23:30:00.000-07:00

hahax.. today sophia, yan ting and i go orchard buy wei ting's bday gift.. sophia bought a pink colour billabong pencil box 2 wei ting.. hehex.. den we go eat KFC.. yan ting's slipper suddenly spoil.. so funny.. den she vv clever use the ling ling on my HP 2 bind up her slipper..while we were eating till half way.. sophia's mummy suddenly pop out.. she call us go running.. coz we keep sitting down playing com.. nv exercise the chance of growing fatter gets higher.. hahax.. den she keep nagging.. so cute.. after eating we go walk walk.. den yanting's slipper spoil again.. hahax.. so shui.. 3 of us squeeze in the crippled toilet.. so weird.. other ppl saw us they tot wat are we doing inside... when we come out a bit funny lik we are doing some illegal things hahax.. and o so a bit lik 3 lesbian doing XX hahax.. so funny.. actually we are juz fixing slipper.. kekex.. den yan ting ask me 2 choose a present.. den she bought me a mambo pink colour bag.. so cute.. as my bday gift.. my bday is quite far frm now.. but she wanna buy first.. i think i should buy her something in return.. she sure lik it wan.. coz i buy de mahx.. hahax bhb.. thx 4 ur gift ting.. tomato too bad today nv go swimming.. didnt get 2 drink pool water.. mayb nxt time bahx.. is the time 4 me 2 go jian fei le.. i'll listen to auntie's advise.. i sure bring sophia along de.. hahax

cross country

2005-09-02T22:30:00.000-07:00

today i get my report card in the morning.. my math and chinese drop till siao.. slacking alot.. haiz.. afternoon i rush home to get my councillor t-shirt.. so tired nia running in the rain.. coz i need tat 4 duty.. when we reach macritchie resservoir.. rain again.. standing under the rain for 3 hrs.. i was dripping water frm head 2 toe.. den when i was helping 2 wash the class tag.... accidentally cut my little finger.. wth the wound so deep nia.. keep bleeding.. dun noe y i was vv high on the way back 2 my sch.. keep singing and jumping hahax.. when i reach home.. really tired and wet.. at first i thought 2 hav a nice chat wif tomato.. but he fall aslp.. he muz b tired so nvm.. den i help my mum 2 login her acc but i 4got the pass.. den my dad scold me stupid.. haiz.. mayb i'm really stupid bahx.. hahax.. the plaster vv irritating hahax lik me.. den i take out.. my finger start bleeding again.. stupid de..

fairytales do come true

2005-09-01T23:16:00.000-07:00

Fairytales do come true.. weilian won the superstar.. he cry leh.. so sad.. i almost o so cry.. so touch manz.. hope my fairytales come true too.. would tat day arrival?

superstar

2005-09-01T22:20:00.000-07:00

today i go shopping wif yan ting.. to buy sophia and wei ting's bday gift.. i buy a billabong pencil box 4 sophia and a green colour wallet 4 weiting.. i chosse green colour coz it vv bright and nice nia.. pink and light blue colour get dirty easily.. heeheex today superstar.. weweee jun yang and xin hui sing vv nice nia.. they RoXxz.. the last song of wei lian and kelly both vv touch nia.. wei lian look lik gonna cry.. haiz.. dun noe who would b the winner haiz.. i wish is wei lian coz kelly still young and pretty den wei lian lik vv ke lian.. hope his fairytales come true haiz.. anyway in my heart jun yang is my superstar.. i lik his guardian angel so nice nia.. he wear white really lik bai ma wang zi.. omg.. btw today is teacher's day.. wish all teacher a vv happi teacher's day..

com kena virus

2005-08-31T22:30:00.000-07:00

today i almost over slept.. luckily sharon msg me.. when i reach sch i realize i 4get 2 bring my tie.. sure kena diao de.. den i go councillor Rm 2 gorp 1 tie hahax.. the teacher's day performance vv jialat.. i laugh lik hell.. first time councillor conduct such a lousy performance.. wat biang paiseh nia.. after the performance alot of student cry.. coz Ms jane gonna go UK study le.. she's my SS teacher.. i dun really noe her well so i didnt cry.. but she's a vv caring teacher.. alwayz smile.. nv saw her angry b4.. she's the only teacher in our sch who dun scold ppl.. so cute.. after every thing i go back 2 my pri sch.. i saw quite alot of my old frenz but derek nv come back.. his my best guy frenz in pri sch.. so sad nv get 2 c him.. den i come back home my com kena virus.. lolx.. muz reformat my com.. my music n pic all gone.. my maple story o so gone wth.. re dl need 58hr 30 min leh.. waste time nia.. my gmail acc o so dun noe how come got problem can not sign in msn.. so i use my another acc lohx.. but den muz add contact.. add till i siao.. so many wth.. i stop here liao..

unluck day

2005-08-30T22:50:00.000-07:00

tis morning Ms tan told me tat there are some teacher dun lik my white spec.. they feel tat as a student should not wear tis kind of spec.. wth lohx i got no rite 2 wear spec nia.. Mr tay o so tell me better not to wear coz other teacher might not lik it and some of them might jie ti fa hui some more i'm a councillor.. i try my best liao lohx not to wear in sch where there is alot of ppl.. i only wear during lesson.. lik tat o so tio diao.. if ur wanna me change spec pay 4 me lohx.. i no money 2 change spec lahx.. the most angry is during recess time.. a group of crow yelling bhide me.. dun hav tat gut 2 stand rite in front me 2 scold arx.. say me act cute, er xin.. plz lohx dun get too jealous over me.. u got no rite 2 gif me any comment coz u dun worth a single cent 2 me..look at urself lohx.. la ba hua(morning glory) depend on cow dung 2 survive.. society parasite.. k i scold till here stop le.. hahax.. tml go back 2 pri sch.. gonna saw my pri sch frenz keke..